Hey there. It's been a little while since the last time I've written, figured it's about time for a solid update. Anyways, school's been going good. Although I dropped my law & accounting class, it is what I feel was right for me, and I'm all about that. I would rather take it at another time when I'm more so focused solely on that class, and I knew right now was just not the right time. Beside that class though, Everything at school is really going fairly well. I really love my major, the business aspect is a little tedious but in this culinary 'adventure' I see my life, my little dream somehow falling into place. It makes me very excited. I know if I work for what I want, no matter how ignorant people may criticize community colleges, I can try my best to make my dreams an amazing reality. Now other than school, I believe there's nothing I can complain about in my life. I've been blessed and I know this and I am thankfully genuinely happy. Of course there are certain things that bring me down or upset/annoy me here & there, but that's life and luckily nothing to make a big deal over. I've recently learned that I may not be the best at comprimising with other people when they're angry, but as I constantly try to remind myself, everyone is of a different soul. My duck theory continues to persist in my life for now. I notice so many things around me that I really do wish I knew how to better express, but I guess it's just part of walking in my own shoes. Sometimes I wonder when a different time will come, but again, I expect zero sympathy. They're not chasing me and I am by no means chasing them. Something that I am hoping as of now is that we are able to become very good friends with these new three. I feel like it would be a good thing for us, and I do always trust my intuition above all. For some reason you and I are connected, and I feel like it will go somewhere... not sure why. Heaven only knows, we may go entirely separate ways for years to come, or we may just go stronger. I have the slightest clue as to what this is but I've just decided to jive with it. I do know that I'm not the only one that feels this however. I've also come to realize that sometimes I may bring people down with my personal ways, but for me, it's better to stay true to myself.

Someday, I will understand in God's whole plan & what he's done to me.

So no matter you say, no matter how defensive you may be (even when you say you aren't), this is still going to affect me. In all honesty, that was something that truly upset me and I don't think that you had even the slightest right to say what you said. Maybe, just maybe, it could've been put in simpler terms. Maybe it's just something I will never never understand... I guess it's a 'couple' thing. I just wish you were more understanding toward my side. No use dwelling on things though.

No one understands what I have found, no not even me.

" Sometimes there's bullshit that don't work now. We all got our stories but please tell me what there is to complain about. "

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Happy New Year! It's been a while. Welcoming 2011 is exciting, but meanwhile I can't believe a year has gone by so fast. So much has happened in 2010 that I know I will never forget. I graduated high school, and started college, which are both huge milestones. I know 2010 will forever have a special place in my heart. It's always good to be able to happily look back at things, and set aside the bad things that happened. 2010 had brought me to screamin parties, which has become such a piece of me. It's taught me important things. It's something I truly love, we have our own family there. However, one thing that 2010 truly made me realize was how to deal with friendships, and hold truth from ... not so real. Though I didn't expect it to, a lot has changed since college has started. Not only surrounding issues, but just myself as a person. Thankfully, I have just very few true friends, that I know will always be with me, for this i'm so grateful. Especially for Vicky, who I know will stand by me forever. We have been through everything, I still can't believe we were just nine years old when we became friends in the fourth grade. Though we are such different people, I see us as a soulmates in a non romantic way. I see us as the true definition of best friends. My Jonas sisters as well will forever more be sisters to me. Even when we're miles& miles apart, we're united at the heart. Something I am no longer saddened by, but just disappointed and grossed out about is E. I do not know what's happened to her or exactly how we grew apart, but I'm sure I can't look at her anymore. I believe when you can't respect yourself, no one will ever respect you. It's shameful to think this is the path she chose for her life, and to entirely throw away her innocence to such a piece of shit guy. Anyways, I am thrilled to welcome this new year, I feel it will be a great one. It's just crazy to see how fast time flies. That's why I believe we must live while we can, because life is an extremely precious gift.

... It was the end of a decade, but the start of age. Long Live.