hmm. not sure why this happens. this is why things like this aren't meant to happen in my life, at least not now. sometimes, i just don't know how to take it all in. i'm only one person & i'm not sure how many times this is capable of occuring but i guess time holds that answer.

she hates the sun cause it proves she's not alone & the world doesn't revolve around her soul.

      she loves the sky cause it validates her pride, never lets her know when she is wrong.

                                         don't let em get, inside of your head.

i don't understand some people and their big mouths. maybe just because i myself, am quiet. & i understand change, just not coming from you. i don't know why you'd trust her over me. but this is just something you'll never notice.

i have to say complaining is something i don't like in a person. once in a while, it's one thing. over reacting is another. but it's not me as a person, so i am not in control. it's almost the end of summer, i'm going into my senior year. wow. i remember when i started this i was like the sixth grade. time fliesss.  i'll let you know how everything goes :)

NEW things in life i've learned/acquired:

1.) i gained my true best friend back since the last time i've written. we've been to hell & back, but all in all i know it's truly made us stronger, no one could replace our realtionship, or what you mean to me. afterall, we're family and i love you dearly bri <3 always. time has really shown us that it's meant to be.

2.) a closer realtionship to the jb, which i'm very thankful for, i'm now beginning to see just how much being a true fan means to me, and my jonas sisters.

3.) the strength to be a bigger person, i think i've gained that through recent experience.

4.) never to take bs, from someone who barely knows you or your best friend. stupid asshole.

5.) officially realizing 'growing up'. and officially  having the the ability to say goodbye to the past, meaning  you.

the one thing i've lost:

-  you as a friend. but i am truly alright with it. actually, you were a best friend. i truly don't know what happened to you, or what made you turn into such a monster. for your sake, i hope you work your issues you out. i couldn't be friends with you again though, and i can say without a doubt. i never knew one could be so fake. especially through our realtionship, i definitely thought you'd learn to be real, at least from me.

done for now. 71409<3ily.